It has been sometime since I last made a post here on my website blog. Like many, life happens while we’re happily blogging away, and suddenly we are caught up in other things that take up our time and energies. For me, it has been physical pain.
I was in a car accident in June of 2014, and the outcomes of that accident continue to affect me. I have had to literally retrain my brain to work in different ways than it used to. I have had to get physical therapy, massage, acupuncture, and many other sorts of bodywork, aimed at, and with the goal that my body would start to feel better. In some ways it has, in others–not.
Being who I am, I have learned to adapt. I am intelligent, so have figured out ways to make my life work so that I could continue to go on with it in some form or fashion. I am magical, so have put out the intentions to find the people/healers I need to help me. All of these methods combined, have helped me to be in a place where I can start to feel like I have a handle on things–more or less.
I wish I could say I’m all better, and my physical issues are all behind me–they’re not. I have degenerating disks in my spine, and by virtue of that term, they won’t get better, my spine won’t suddenly fall back together like a movie run from end to beginning. So, I incorporate my Naropa training to get me through. I breathe a lot, I breathe through the chronic pain that plagues me, and I live my life moment by moment. I cannot look to the future, I cannot dwell over on the past–I am where I am, right here, right now.
You might wonder how do I get through this? See above. Yet, added to it all is a rich ancestor practice, and a spiritual path that gives my life meaning. I have two talented beautiful kids, a partner that loves me, a connection with the divine and those who have gone before, and a sense that all is unfolding as it should, and when it’s time for me to leave this life, I will–no fear, no anguish, no strain on my part. 
This may sound like gloom and doom, and yet, I feel a strong sense of hope. On this, the last day of this year, I look at where the country of my birth is headed, and I feel both sadness and hopefulness. I see young folks who are stepping up and recognizing the need to be fully engaged with this life they are creating for themselves and their children. To hold anger toward previous generations is an argument that holds no water. Each generation does what it can, and the work continues, as it is a work in progress–always.
The sadness I feel? As one who is evolved, and who is in contact with the collective unconscious, I see a very poor choice of president, who has as his goal the desire to take us back to another place and time, who has no feelings for the people he got to support him. He cares not about the little people, he cares only for money and power as the 1% always have.
The other sadness I feel is a sense of deep grief that the amazing and wonderful president Obama is leaving office. He who gave us as Black people so much hope, our children so much to be inspired by, and a nation a taste of something we never thought we would. May history look back someday and see how much he truly accomplished despite all that was done to stand in his way. Plain and simple, I will miss him greatly.
As this old year ends, I wish for a release, and as the new year begins, may we all find peace, prosperity, love, and understanding between us all.
Many blessings,
Soltahr